So i have been spending a lot of time thinking lately and i have decided that i don't care if i have problems i am going to say screw them all and be awesome or something like that. And i really do have lots of problems. I feel bad for anyone in a relationship with me because i have trust issues as well as inadequacy issues and i constantly am insecure. But i have decided that none of that matter i want to be happy and damn it i will be even if i have to stop caring about how messed up i am.
Why do i even try? I feel inadequate no matter what and i just can't help but want to not even bother trying anymore. My inability to sleep is not helping me out at all (of course). Sigh i am not even gonna bother any more what is the point of sleep when i am in such a crappy mood that i can't even sleep. There are so many things i wish i could understand but i never will so i wont even bother.